Monday, April 18, 2011

Exciting things on the horizon

I'm still dumbfounded by the fact that I will be finished with my sophomore year of college in a little under a month. Time definitely flies.

I love to plan and know exactly what is going on. My planner definitely keeps me sane and I like to have an idea of what my weeks will look like. However, I've lately been learning to delight in the unknown. So often I try to plan ahead for my future and I often get carried away with it. I like to know what my life will look like, because deep down I'm a control freak.

The Lord has been teaching me lately that not knowing every detail of my life is okay. He keeps reminding me that He's got it covered, and that I don't need to worry about it. I know to some not fully trusting God with my future might seem a little silly and insignificant. It's really something that I struggle with though. Even little things such as random surprises sometimes throw me off, because it's something that I don't expect or haven't had time to prepare myself for. I think in some little ways God has been using my boyfriend to loosen me up a little bit. Steven loves surprising me and planning dates without telling me what we'll be doing. At first I would kind of stress out and get annoyed that I didn't know what was going on. Over the past month or so though it's something that I actually look forward to. I think it's a small way that God reminds me that it's okay to not know everything at all times.

I have to daily tell myself that I don't need to worry or stress out over my future, because God has in under control. When I take a step back and really think about that I feel so much lighter. Trying to know every small detail of my life weighs me down more than I realize. Sure, I think it's okay to think about my future but the second I think I have it all figured out on my own that's where the problem is. I'm learning how to relax with the Lord and the stage of life I'm currently in. The rest will all work itself out, as long as I'm fully trusting in God's plan I know it'll be okay.

On a lighter note, I'm so ecstatic about the fall! This semester I started to get pretty involved with an on-campus ministry called Campus Crusade for Christ, or Cru for short. It definitely has been such a blessing to my life. In the fall I'm going to get the chance to co-lead a freshmen community group (bible study)! I'm going to be leading in one of the smaller all girls dorms, it has a total of 94 girls in it. I'm leading with the fabulous Katie, which is such a God thing. She definitely has a huge heart for the Lord and it's so evident in every part of her life. The incoming freshmen class is going to be HUGE! Seriously. This year Cru had a total of 45 community group leaders and next year there will be 95! How insane is that? God is up to some pretty big things at the University of Arkansas. I'm looking forward to pouring into a group of freshman girls every week. Please be praying for Katie and I, I know it won't be easy but God will definitely use us in big ways.

Now, a few pictures for formal! My sorority had our annual formal two weekends ago, and here are some pictures from it! Enjoy :)

I'm a huge fan of this guy. He's a pretty great boyfriend :)

My beautiful future roommates for next year! Mollie and Amanda. They're such a blessing to me.

The group! Feel free to laugh at the awkwardness of this picture. I know I do.

We were tired of taking normal pictures. Katy and Mollie! Love them.

We moved to dance party outside, because it was way too hot inside the building. Pretty legit.

Happy Monday everyone!


Gram said...

after graduation from college, my daughter-in-law spent 2 years in hungary with campus crusade. 2 of the best years of her life!

(wasn't it peggy edwards who said you two would be a couple even before you were?)

Kelsey0824 said...

Haha, did she say that? Oh Peggy.....miss you Jan!